Tell Me You Love Me

Why can’t I say it out loud? Why can’t I admit it? Why can’t I shout it to the heavens?

I think people rely on chance too much. We so deeply always think we can level up. We can find better, we can DO better.

That’s a fool’s plan. I prefer to value people. We only get one shot at life after all. Why would I dare throw

away happiness just because it isn’t always easy to maintain.

I ain’t made that way but unfortunately for me a great deal of other people out in the world are.

I’m scared. What happens when this happens again. There are aleady too many similarities. Too many easily found comparisons...fraternization, etc. Going down this road without a plan will lead to a tragic ending. It always does, right? I almost didn’t survive the last time. Can someone just promise me it won’t be like it was?

I wish I hadn’t changed so much over the last 8 months. I wish I wasn’t forced to. I never wanted to be this version of me.

I used to be so naive with the expectations I had for letting new people into my life. I thought that by simply extending kindness, I would receive it back.

I’ve never felt more like a fool over a year later.

Tell me you love me.